http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php This is a discussion forum powered by vBulletin. To find out about vBulletin, go to http://www.vbulletin.com/ . en Sun, 05 Feb 2012 10:48:55 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/images_pb/misc/rss.jpg http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=133 Tue, 24 Mar 2009 02:51:08 GMT "Socialism was the answer to all the workers problems, it promised fair wages, shorter work days, profit sharing through the shared ownership of the means of production and the opportunity to serve and improve their country directly through their actions.
People were very excited."
"So they had a party?" Asked Timmy.
"Well, the party came after, first came the Revolution."
"Revlooshn?" Repeated Timmy.
"Yes, a revolution is when the majority of the people of a country wish to oust the leaders of their country."
"Oust...that sounds painful."
"It usually is Timmy."
"Oh." Says Timmy through a yawn.
"Revolutions are usually an attempt to better the conditions for the people, it is just too bad that it must so often be realized through violent means"
"Dad," Timmy interrupts "I'm sleepy."
"Ok Timmy" Dad kisses Timmy's head, ruffles his hair and turns out the lights.
"Sleep tight, don't let the imperialists bite."
"I..I..I.Impeerlists?" ]]> reality_trap http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=133 http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=132 Sat, 17 Jan 2009 19:27:48 GMT "Where was I, ah yes, Europe, abuzz with new industry. It was an exciting time Timmy, there were all sorts of new machines to speed up production in the manufacturing plants."
"You mean robots?" Asked Timmy.
"Yeah, sorta."
"Cool! Hey Dad, what's a man-fac-shuring-plant?"
"It's a giant building where workers toil long hours, doing tedious work for little pay."
"Cool!" Says Timmy, missing the point.

Dad shakes his head and smiles.

"No Timmy, it's not cool. Workers should be treated fairly, and infact, around the time of the great Industrial Revolution a new school of thought emerged. Socialism was it's name."
"Soshulisum?" Repeated Timmy.
"Yup." ]]> reality_trap http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=132 http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=131 Sun, 11 Jan 2009 19:40:55 GMT "Why can't people just get along?" Asked little Timmy.
"Well son, it's complicated, but tell you what, I'll start from the beginning when times were simpler, ok?"
"Ok." Replied Timmy.

"Hmmm. Once upon a time...no. Long, long time ago...uhh, in the beggining...actually son the very beggining is a little fuzzy, so I'll just skip ahead. Ok?"
"Ok." Replied Timmy.

"Ok. It was the time of the industrial revolution, and all of Europe was abuzz with increased industry, and"
"What's industry" Asked Timmy.
"Well, industry is what happens when a large group of people work and create products for distribution and sale."
"Oh." Said Timmy with a bewildered look on his face. ]]> reality_trap http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=131 http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=130 Thu, 18 Dec 2008 21:56:05 GMT It's christmas time, and the HumBugs are out in full force.
I do sympathize with them, it is always a hard time for most, it's capitalism at it's best, Merry F$$$ing Christmas.
I myself like the atmosphere but sometimes I wonder wether that feeling stems from my youth and loving christmas because we received presents.
I've put a ban on barbies this year.

Well, Seasons Greetings to all.
Oh, one last thing...try to buy Domestic produsts this year eh...China made products are killing our economy...and us. ]]> reality_trap http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=130 http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=129 Fri, 05 Dec 2008 23:27:09 GMT I don't know if anyone will ever read this, but I'll use this as a quasi diary. A place to lay down my daily thoughts, lest i forget them. This is my personal blog so bear with me, things may get a bit strange. ]]> reality_trap http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=129 http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=127 Wed, 28 Jun 2006 15:47:31 GMT Fun. Dayan may or may not have changed. I'll have to see how this pans out. It just seems so many people are walking right back in to my life while I'm trying to change like higher powers are fighting over how they want me to turn out and whose side I'm on. Bleck.

One of my goals is to have the same faith in myself that others do in my abilities and learn how to control them. I really should just ask Jen or Lon to do a reading on me but I don't know if they'd want to. For all we know I'm just delusional and don't know it yet and that's bad news nobody wants to be the bearer of. Oh well. I guess I'll steel myself for the possibility that I'm just nuts with wierd luck and then ask for the reading. Expect the worst and hope for the best but make sure what you are getting is the truth. I trust Jen and Lon to let me know the truth and not hold back. Sometimes I just need to know and finding out without resources like they have is just frustrating. Everything comes and goes and warps. Since I'm going through a period of change, my gifts are changing like crazy more than blondes change shoes in blond jokes. Sometimes I'm psychic, sometimes elemental, sometimes both, and at varying degrees all the time right now. Needless to say if I'm not nuts already, I'm sure headed that way if I can't get it to tone down like RIGHT NOW! I've got a giant headache and my horomones are out of whack.

Oh and by the way... WHOEVER IS SUMMONING ME, KNOCK IT OFF OR I'M GOING TO SERIOUSLY RIP YOUR HEAD OFF! Or at least do it right and have a very good excuse. I have a body and I'm capable of using a phone or internet or snail mail. Take advantage of that fact. Being summoned hurts when done by just thinking about wanting me to talk to. Basically it starts as a thought. Then it becomes a yank on the heart that gets stronger and makes the chest hurt a lot. Then it becomes a major headache bordering on migraine coupled with the chest pains and if they just want my presence spiritually I will just knock right out and be there if I decide I am too tired to fight it anymore. If my physical presence is required it's a ringing migraine until they give up or until I talk to them. The RIGHT way to do it is to use my soul name. If you don't have my soul name, you have no right to summon me. After using the soul name mentally state situation as emergency and show me a blurb of what's going on and if you know where you are send me that mentally as well. If you don't know where you are, put out a very big flare and I'll find you in no time. But I get there a lot faster that way and it's only a realization of, "oh I'm needed. WHOA!" And I'm pulled right over to you in one sweep I can't argue with. No real pain, just a yank. Do not abuse it if you use that method or I will change my soul name and make it impossible to use it when you need it. I don't know who is summoning me lately but do it right or I'm doing everything in my power to NOT answer. I don't know if it's anyone here or not but just in case.

More later. ]]> imported_AngelPyra http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=127 http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=126 Fri, 31 Mar 2006 23:58:17 GMT Hm interesting. I've made the poet of the year already on a website dedicated to poetry. Shocking. I can't even submit my best works to it because they are too long. Either I'm the only member, it's random, or they have surprisingly disturbing poets and mine are just light and lovey dovey enough they always want more since love poetry is my fuorte and the only thing I can write short as well as long. Whatever it is, I'm happy. I'll see if I get anything.

I've gotten a new job for Primerica. My classes for getting licenced for life insurance are tomorrow and sunday. O.o Scarry and then I've gotta pass the exam shortly after...

Anyway, UPS is hard. My boss started cutting my hours for days even when I can't get anything off the ground for the other job. Fortunately, on days my co worker called in I got some extra hours. Those extra hours will be a paycheck saver... Might be able to make the bills after all. :p

I shocked Xan when I cleaned house after work yesterday. He knows I hate cleaning, can't cook (I'm the sort of cook that will burn ramen noodles), etc, so when I do it he appreciates it a whole lot more. He came home to a mostly clean house. ^.^ And got to sleep in a mostly clean house. Most of what I have left I couldn't do because we need another vacuum bag and need to fix the disposal. I'm wierd. I can't do dishes anymore without a working disposal to flush the icky stuff away since our dishwasher stopped working as well and thus I have to prewash everything. Xan's notorious for leaving food half eaten no matter who cooked or made it for him so there's always caked on stuff. Only other things left after that stuff is laundry... I'm down to my colorful as heck pants and white shirts and pajamas. O.o Not exactly work attire.

What else? On the magick level, I've met someone that's willing to find me a teacher and retaught me the basics. Other than that, nothing much. Still awaiting the teacher sort, preferably not the kind to fall in love with because that would complicate my life juuuust a litttle too much considering I'm supposed to be getting married and Xan already calls me his wife on his tax returns...

Anyway, time to go home. Take care folks. ]]> imported_AngelPyra http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=126 http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=125 Tue, 28 Mar 2006 16:54:43 GMT .> Oh well. I'll start up one that doesn't get the universe pissed at me for revealing it's secrets eventually... O.o]]> Hmm I forgot how dead it gets here. O.o Now I remember why I stopped coming. Interesting conversations ceased. >.> Oh well. I'll start up one that doesn't get the universe pissed at me for revealing it's secrets eventually... O.o ]]> imported_AngelPyra http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=125 http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=124 Tue, 21 Feb 2006 23:48:28 GMT Things are getting better I will be going back to work shortly....I've learned quite a bit from the sites I have been researching and I have decided to accept who I am and if anyone does not like it that is too bad....I have a lot of talents that i am going to pursue and study I just need to keep the faith. I have felt like the last few months I have been tested on a religious standpoint some tests I passed and some I failed miserably but it all has been a huge learning experience for me. I am playing my violin and singing alot more I just want to find some people to work with maybe a band or something.....I am going to go back to school in the fall I thought I knew what I was going to study but I have now changed my mind once again.
Besides my children God and Music have been my only constants since my father passed away 16 years ago I miss him and my mother terribly they were my best friends and I wish I would have listened to them a little more closely.......The electyric tingly feeling in my hands is still there and I have been studying more about telekenesis as my emotions calm down I don't feel them as strongly as I once did but it is nice to know that other people out there are having similar experiences it makes me feel like I am not so all alone here....I would like to make friends in here but I don't know how,,,,,if anyone can contact me please do or leave a message on my journal thank you
joni ]]> imported_joni http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=124 http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=123 Tue, 14 Feb 2006 13:38:59 GMT My journey has been long and hard thus far. I feel like I am being trained for something on a daily basis. I spend a lot of time in the spiritual realm therefore most people don't understand me. I just was diagnosed with genius level intelligence. I would rather be blonde with a big chest......than have this nightmare...I see things before they happen more often everyday. Hell I just predicted for my ex to meet a beautiful woman with money isn't that fantastic and here I sit alone on Valentines day one of my favorite holidays, at 6:00 in the morning. He was kissing her at the bar yesturday in front of everyone he has found a new love which I predicted. I hate being able to read the thoughts of the people I care about that is how I knew he did not love me he tolerated me. I don't know how not be be invasive I need knowldege my life is usually shambles taking on one person's pain after another I usually end up homeless because a lot of people get frustrated that I tell the truth most of the time, but lie to myself.....I thought he loved me until I found out that he had gotten another woman pregnant just before we were going out and then lied to me the whole time. I was mad and went on a vengeful mission hell hath no fury like a woman scorned......I used my gifts and caused more irepairable havoc all over and then the person I really hurt the most was myself. I am 39 and most of the time I act like I am 18. My mother died when I was eighteen and I have been stuck there ever since...when my father died at 23 my world caved in........and know I am starting my spritual journey to find myself because I am lost and do not know myself at all.....I am capable of extraordinary things I just have to grow up! ]]> imported_joni http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=123 http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=122 Sat, 11 Feb 2006 22:33:36 GMT .> Not too much has changed except my gifts are being uber wierd. My premonitions never used to feel real as they happened. They always at least had the "this isn't really happening now but will later" feeling. Not lately. Now it's like I'd get a major headache, mingled...]]> Yes, it has been a while. >.> Not too much has changed except my gifts are being uber wierd. My premonitions never used to feel real as they happened. They always at least had the "this isn't really happening now but will later" feeling. Not lately. Now it's like I'd get a major headache, mingled with what feels a little like a panic attack, and then I'd get the images moving around me and everything would feel like it's happening then and there. They typically happen around three weeks to two months later. It's like premonitions in the form of hallucinations. I seriously have to wonder about everything around me right now if it's actually happening or if I'm gonna experience the real thing later. It's kind of getting annoying. I'm not the only one being affected by it either. Xan's getting annoyed with it, and I'm pretty sure my co-workers will get annoyed as well once I start having these sort of attacks at work. What's happening to me? :confused:

I've been stressed and under the weather a lot lately. Every once in a while I get so tired I can knock out for twelve hours out of twenty four and still feel exhausted. I've always been strange in how my mind and body handle stress. I find something I enjoy and do it, keep an air of independence, and recharge my battery one day out of every week. This is what I should be doing me thinks. I haven't done it effectively for months. Why not? Xan's recharge day is sunday. Sunday is a day I can't sleep in to save my life. I try, but the most sleep I can get is about four hours. My body takes in energy from everything else on sundays and is restless. Fridays are my recharge day. Those are the days that I used to come home from school and crash in my bed first thing and not wake up until 5AM. I kinda miss that. I think my body has been going nuts since it hasn't had an official recharge day in a really long time.

Anyway, work is funny right now. I've just agreed to hand deliver a package that is right next door to our store. I left it up to him as to how much he'd pay. He'll be coming back on the first to give the payment he thinks it deserves. He's a wierdo. He comes to our UPS store to ship something to someone literally next door to our store and expects it to be like $5 or less. "-.-; I eventually was like, "okay, I've got an idea, but let me check with my co-worker if it's legal for me to do so." After asking my co-worker, he said it had never been done before, so I figured I'd go ahead and do it for the hell of it. When someone makes an ass of themselves, the best way to make them bend over backwards like they want you to do is give them what they want and make it look like you're bending over backwards for them even if you aren't. I expect that guy to pay about $30 after his pay day. No clue if that's going to be actually what he gives, but I have his name and phone number, and I'm going to give half of what he gives me as tip as service fee to the store, which means today storage, monday storage, and service fee. That will end up $15 for the store, and $15 for me. ^.^ I don't see why not. Hehehehe Either way, if it's under $15 though it's going straight to the register instead of my pocket.

Anyway, gonna head off. Bye for now and take care. ]]> imported_AngelPyra http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=122 http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=121 Wed, 07 Dec 2005 19:18:10 GMT So much has happened it would be a bore to list it all. Long story short, I stopped being able to access Heartsong from my old location shortly after my last journal entry on here. Seth or Scot probably cheated on a game and got the IP address banned or something, assuming that is possible. Since... So much has happened it would be a bore to list it all. Long story short, I stopped being able to access Heartsong from my old location shortly after my last journal entry on here. Seth or Scot probably cheated on a game and got the IP address banned or something, assuming that is possible. Since then, things have been fun on the positive and sacastic level. I got engaged, moved out October 1st, moved in with my fiance, got hired in to a job I hate (ok the boss is okay, but sales is just not my thing. :confused: ), and discovered my glaucoma is getting worse along with my memory.

More another time. I only have internet access at work. "-.-; Take care and bye for now. ]]> imported_AngelPyra http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=121 http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=120 Thu, 24 Nov 2005 07:02:30 GMT I want to forget everything I have ever done. I don't want to ever revisit that period of my life ever again. The only thing that mitigates my depression is psychadelic drugs. It's not that I want to die, it's just that being alive is painful and terrible. I'm so tired and want to go to sleep for a million years. ]]> imported_Havoc http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=120 http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=119 Thu, 17 Nov 2005 16:25:17 GMT Sometimes it takes quite a while for things that you plan out to happen. More so if they are long term plans with lotsa little goals. These goals make the time go quicker and helps to remind you of what is coming and keeps you on track. One of these goals is approching next week. Over the... Sometimes it takes quite a while for things that you plan out to happen. More so if they are long term plans with lotsa little goals. These goals make the time go quicker and helps to remind you of what is coming and keeps you on track.

One of these goals is approching next week.

Over the summer I thought quite a while on what I would like to do for the rest of my life. So far the plan ive been following has gone along these lines:

Graduate from high school.
Go to college.
Get a degree.
Work in a fairly high paying job for a few years to establish myself.
Go to University.

Im at the University stage now. Got a career as a web designer and I do technical support for a call center. Im in a postion now where Ive already been through college and have a good backround to fall on so that when I go to University I won't be pressured to work a part time job and can concentrate on school.

After thinking about it for a while, ive decided to enter a feild I have had some interest for a while, Enviromental Science.

Next week im submitting my application for University, based on what happenes with this, I will start the process of getting prepared to go, or fall back to my web development and wait for another year.

With this coming up though, its kinda nice to see time passing by and long term goals getting closer. ]]> imported_Windstrum http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=119 http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=118 Sun, 23 Oct 2005 05:02:33 GMT Whoever you love won't love you back. It's a law of physics. It's ok though because whoever they're really interested in won't love them either. You know that pretty girl who you want but doesn't want you becasue she totally has a crush on some great guy? That guy is me. I'm the reason the pretty girl only wants to be your friend. Frankly, I'm just about the handsomest guy I know and only use good looks and charm to string along pretty young girls. They think I'm great. In reality I'm closer to "pure evil" than "great".

I'll swallow another valium and wash it down with cigarette smoke.

I'm slowly disassembaling the entire world. I tell people I carry around a tiny case of tiny screwdrivers because I work in tech support. I really do it because I take apart as much of as many things as I can without getting caught. The next time you sit in a chair and it collapses think of me. I probably took all the screws out of that dumb chair and thought to myself "I hope some bastard sits in this chair and it collapses." I've got nuts, bolts, washers, screws, nails, all kinds of wierd screws you need a star driver to get out, and a million other tiny pieces of hardware all sitting in my memory box. Most people want to leave their mark on the world by doing something great, and be remembered by their wonderful contribution to society. I'm leaving my mark by erasing everyone else's marks.

If I take one more valium my skin is going to turn powder blue I swear to God.

I like when thousands of people die in disasters. I wish veryone in New Orleans died from the hurricane. I hope the marines kill every child in Iraq. The best thing that could happen is a nuclear war. I want to have atomic vision. I have no political affiliation. I'm for whatever will do the most damage and radical change. If anything I'm a futurist. Not the kind who thinks about the future, the Filippo Tommaso Marinetti kind.

They sell nonchallance and coolness in pill form now. Right now I'm just about the coolest guy in the universe.

I originally wanted to be a dentist but around age 10 I got on the fast track to becomming an assasin. My dream job is working for the CIA as some shadowy Batman-like figure who gets sent overseas to kill problamatic individuals. I'm sure the job exists but you probably have to go to Batman school and even after graduation there's no gaurentee you'll get a killing job at the CIA. There's no way in hell I'm gonna go through all those years of Batman school. Batmen aren't in high demand. Instead I work as a cook. Just ask me how to cook perfect spaghetti. Go ahead, ask. I know the answer, but I'll give you fake advice so your product isn't as good as mine.

Good grief. I'm such a heel.



This journal entry is not serious. It is just for fun. ]]> imported_Havoc http://www.heartsongctr.com/vbulletin/blog.php?b=118